A Story From The Aborted Child

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up. You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already. Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you...why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart. I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
... ...
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?


... You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay? It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more? I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait. Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you! Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion. Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you lov...e me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you! I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

Game Consoles: The PSP

Hello guys, here's another update regarding game consoles. For this post, I will focused on PSP as I am still using it compare to my PS1, PS2, PS3, GBA(Gameboy Advabce lol), Ipod Touch 4th Gen.

I'm currently using PSP model 2000

I recommend this PSP better than PSPGO or the PSP-3000 in terms of easy to hack. For you guys out there, to enjoy psp games (other than buying the original) you MUST hack it and be able to download games for FREE.

PSP-3000 should have a stable CFW (custom firmware) but its still troublesome to do. PSPGO have the same issue as well.

More importantly, since the release of PSPGO, SONY have officially release the new type of PSP called PSP VITA

 This is the new PSP that has been released from SONY Playstation.
Some of the functions-
Dual Analog Stick


Touch Screen Capabilities


Dual camera at front and the back (skype enable)


Awesome Graphic (compare to PSP-1000, PSP-2000, PSP-3000 or the PSPGO)


 Features a 4 core ARM Cortex-A9 MPCorel processor and a 4 core SGX543MP4 + graphics processing unit, as well as LiveAreaas its main user interface, which succeeds the XrossMediaBar.


Bluetooth, Wifi and 3G supported device :D


This PSP Vita cost around RM1000+ if ur living in Malaysia and will be released worldwide on December 2011. Highly recommended for those whom are bored with their old PSP or planning to own a PSP.

That's all for today post :D

For The Girls Who Wants the Perfect Guy :P

For this post, Its specifically for the ladies who wanna know the type of guy via their horoscope. Not ENTIRELY true so dont take it seriously. Btw, I'm a SAGITTARIUS :P


Aries (21 Mac – 20 April)
The Person: Mama's boy! Intelligent.
Tips utk memikat: Bagus untuk ladies wearing hijab (NO OFFENCE) but its true..
Jejaka Aries suka wanita yang sopan, tata-tertib.. sebab nak bawa tunjuk mak so
kena lah bawa balik yang bagus punya.
WARNING: Jika anda betul anda rasa kes ini pilihan anda, pilih lah. Kalau tidak,
jangan lah main-mainkan hatinya. Hati dah luka sukar nak dibaiki.

Leo (24 Julai – 23 Ogos)
Orang nya: Penyayang, warm hearted, tidak kedekut bila mahu berkongsi kesenangan
dan kemewahan dengan orang yang disayangi nya. Jejaka Leo ini juga seorang yang
ambitious, self-centered tapi tak ego.(kadang-kadang je ego). Pandai
berkata-kata.
Tips utk memikat: Sebagai perempuan, harus lah menunjukkan kewanitaan yang
selembut-lembutnya. Kena tahu bagaimana menilai dan menghargai setiap ciri dan
kualiti ada pada jejaka leo.
WARNING: JANGAN bercakap atau memuji lelaki lain di
hadapan LEO. Mereka tak suka dibanding-bandingkan dengan orang lain.. mereka tu
sensitif!

Virgo (24 Ogos – 23 September)
Orang nya: Pemalu, tak pandai mengawal emosi. Suka mencari perhatian
dari perempuan.
Tips utk memikat: Lelaki Virgo suka yang pendiam, tak kecoh, sofisticated,
simple, jangan banyak cakap. So kenalah pandai
menyerlahkan nilai-nilai kewanitaan, gaya yang manis, kelembutan dan tak lupa
kesabaran.
WARNING: Bila pergi dating, jangan pakai yang ter “over welming”.. virgo ini
gatal.

Libra ( 24 September – 23 Oktober)
Orang nya: Cerewet, posessive, takes things lightly when comes to quarrel tapi
jujur dlm segala hal. Suka buat keputusan `last minute`. Seringkala kontrol diri
depan perempuan.
Tips utk memikat: Libra suka perempuan yang ceria, happy go lucky..
SO be urself.
WARNING: So bila nak date. Wear make-up yg sederhana. Tapi jangan lupa
cover-up pimple jika ada. A big turn off for Libra pasal diorang ingat diorang
ni semua hensem. :p

Scorpio ( 24 Oktober – 23 November)
Orang nya: Action serius, mudah cemburu, mood swing.
Tips utk memikat: Sentiasa menghargai nya. Nak bergayut di telephone berjam-jam
pun takpe! janji dengan dia, kerana Scorpio ini macam Libra juga, posessive. Tak
suka berkongsi perempuan nya dengan orang lain.
WARNING: Buat pilihan yg betul bila mahu memikat scorpio, kerana bila dah
terjerat susah nak escape dari scorpio.

Cancer ( 22 Jun – 23 Julai)
Orang nya: Segak, Step kaya, bermurah hati, suka menunjuk-nunjuk dengan
kemewahan. Tetapi mereka adalah sebalik nya.
Tips utk memikat: Jangan pulak anda pun nak step kaya… nanti habis duit dikebas.
WARNING: TOLONG Jangan terpedaya dengan kata manis nyer.. first first manis,
kalau dah lama jadi masam.. kadang kadang jadi basi…

Sagitarius ( 23 November – 21 December)
Orang nya:Siapa dapat memang untung. Sagitarius are always happy.
suka bawa partner jalan-jalan and have fun!
Sort of adventurous.
Tips utk memikat: Sentiasa ada kan plan bila nak keluar sebab Sagittarius ni pemalu bila berada bersama perempuan.
WARNING: Jangan harapkan Sagittarius buat planning kalau nk dating sebab memang diorang akan blur :p

Capricon ( 22 December – 20 Januari)
Orang Nya: Egoistic, ada batu duduk di atas itu kepala, pendek kata Capricon
seorang yang sukar nak meluah kan perasaannya. Jarang sekali anda akan mendengar
dia melafazkan ‘cinta’ pada anda.
Tips utk memikat: COOL je.
WARNING: Macam layang-layang putus tali.. jual mahal.. mahal jugak sis.. jangan
mahal sampai terputus tali..

Aquarius ( 21 Januari – 19 Februari)
Orang Nya: Pijak semut tak mati… Suka yang cantik dan menarik perhatian.
Tips utk memikat: Kacang aje.. sentiasa berpakaian cantik, glamer.. comfirm dia
sentiasa nak berkepit aje dengan you.
WARNING: Lelaki Aquarius nie cepat bosan dengan orang.

Pisces (20 Februari – 20 Mac)
Orang Nya: Segak, bergaya, choosy.. Mudah perasan.
Tips utk memikat: Senyum sikit kat dia, mesti dia akan ingat sampai bila-bila.
WARNING: Mungkin bakal jadi playboy.

Taurus (21 April – 21 Mei)
Orang nya: Mencabar. garang seperti singa, takut seperti tikus. Mereka tidak
tetap dengan pendirian sendiri. Suka Bantu orang lain.
Tips utk memikat: Low profile sikit, mereka suka sesuatu yg mencabar, let him
find out the real you…
WARNING: Kadang-kadang diorang suka buat kelakar seorang seorang… kesian takde
orang lain layan…

Gemini (22 Mei – 21 Jun)
Orang nya: Mudah Gemok! egoistic, tak suka kalah. Kalau ada debate, jangan harap
anda nak menang.. dalam apa-apa persoalan jua mereka ada aje alasan nya
Tips utk memikat: Sabar aje lah.. be patient. Sebagai perempuan, mengalah lah
sikit.. lambat laun hati nya akan lembut jugak.. Lelaki Gemini nie suka pada
perempuan yang lembut, hatinya akan lembut jua.
WARNING: Jangan bersikap terlalu kasar dengan nya.. kalau dah tak tahan dengan
mereka.. blah aje jangan banyak cakap.. mereka panas baran. Tak guna bertengkar
anda tak akan menang punya.

Thats all for today's post. Source: Nizarazu.com

PSP Game recommendation #2

This is the 2nd game recommendation and for those of you who dont know anything bout MHP3 or as the full name applies is Monster Hunter Portable 3rd. This is the 3rd installment for the game series on the PSP and for the 1st and 2nd it kick ass! U dont even need me to tell you that this (MHP3rd) is also awesome.

This game starts with you creating your own character whether male/female and enjoy full customization from face to ur own character's voice. After creating ur character, a few scene of the game and you'll get a sneak peek of the bad ass monsters in the game.

The game will let you start off with some crappy armors and weapons. In order to gain strong weapons and armors, u have to kill monsters and carve off their body parts to be used as ur own. Aint that great? Of course this game is almost based on reality so no Easy mode, Normal mode or Hard mode to choose from. The game will start off easy and things will get tougher and tougher as you venture through the lush environment of the area around you. 

Did I mention that this game can play with ur friends? Simply choose either wlan or ad-hoc mode(PS3 users only). You'll be able to slaughter the monsters easily with ur mates. 

It is a fun game to play and harness your skill. With easy to use combat with a variety of weapons to choose from.

With tons of excitement, this game can accumulate almost 200~300hours of gaming depending on how you like to keep on killing the monsters :D

                                                     Some of the monsters you have to kill

                                                  Just a cool wallpaper from the previous game.

Final words, this game is awesome and I would highly recommend you to buy/download the game. Make sure you already update ur PSP firmware to 5.50 prome-4 and enjoy!

Monster Hunter Fans! your voice have finally been heard!

Heya guys if there are any people left whose reading this blog, this update is for those PS3 owner such as myself and have waited patiently for Monster Hunter series to be publish on the PS3. Capcom have finally decided on releasing MHP3 on the PS3. Its actually the same as the MHP3 on the psp but the different is the graphic. Its in HD~! I dont think there are any other major differences though but as long as its on the PS3 and we are able to ad-hoc freely, thats fiiine~ by me.



FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF YEAAAAH!


Actually this was quite an old news, so I thought that I should just update this since not many of you may know of it or even play MHP3.

PSP Game recommendation #1

I've decided on what my blog main topic is about. Its gonna be about all the sweet ass game recommendation! yeay! as a gamer myself, sharing games is essential for us to know what we missed or what we yet to play. So, for this post, I'm gonna be talking about Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 3 Portable.


Here are some cool wallpaper regarding the game :3

Gameplay images of the game.

They even have female characters as well! ^^,

 Turn-based action RPG (male character)

 To summon your persona, one must use the specialized gun and shoot it at your head :D

Here's the official blabbering from wiki:
Terrible creatures lurk in the dark, preying on those who wander into the hidden hour between one day and the next. As a member of a secret school club, you must wield your inner power--Persona--and protect humanity from impending doom. Will you live to see the light of day?

Watch the opening video and get ready to own the RPG that captured critics and fans alike, earning numerous RPG of the year honors. Built upon an enhanced version of the game, boasting improved playability, and featuring a brand new female protagonist offering another perspective on the story, this is a game that no RPG fan will want to miss.




From my perspective, this game revolved around the classic turn-based RPG. Its kinda boring when I first played it, It was not that much awesome. But as all games are, it takes time for you to really understand its uniqueness. In this game, It has its own uniqueness because to kick the bad guy ass, you need guardian/monster/persona. To create badass persona, you must create link/bond with buddies around you. The stronger the bond, the stronger the persona.


Apart from great storyline, there are also some great battle moves. You can perform badass all-out-attack on ur enemy when you hit their weakspots or attack with their elemental weakness. I mean who wouldnt take the joy of beating the crap outta some monster when they're down rite?


Now, I'm still playing the game and more game recommendation are coming up and here's the link to the awesome opening song for the game http://www.wupload.com/file/95819791

ITS FREEEEEE!

Waddup peeps~

Hey guys~ been awhile since I update this thingy blog. Pretty much forgot the password and guess what? I think its already been a year since I had this blog.


Unlike others, I dont really know what to update now so urm wanna know bout my uni life?


I'm having the best time at UTeM. Complete total freedom and people please, livin' in uni give u a lot of freedom so stop thinking bout hanging out with ur buddies and just enjoy school + focus on what matters. Back to the topic, my housemate are awesome and funny XD took a few weeks for us to get the hang of it but u guys are awesome~!


and a few days ago, i read an interesing article bout our blood type and its personality. mine really match me though :D


here's the detail and check it outtt!

1) Jenis Darah A adalah Petani (Farmers)
Mereka berdarah A adalah golongan yang pemalu tetapi mementingkan kesempurnaan dalam senyap. Mereka sangat bertimbang rasa terhadap orang lain dan tidak pandai menipu. Mereka setia dengan kawan dan rakan sekerja. Mereka boleh menjadi perahsia, kuat, tetapi jarang sekali berkongsi perasaan mereka. Mereka ini sukar dipuaskan dan serius dalam hidup.
Peribadi Asas:
Berhati hati dalam membuat keputusan, sentiasa memastikan sesuatu jelas melalui kontrak, terlalu mementingkan undang-undang sosial kehidupan.
Kadar Toleransi:
Toleransi tinggi dengan kerja-kerja fizikal dan berulang, tidak mampu menerima perubahan dengan mudah, hilang minat pada satu-satu hobi dengan mudah.
Bagaimana mereka melihat masa hadapan dan masa lampau:
Terlalu mencuba untuk melupakan masa lampau, sikap pesimis terhadap masa hadapan.
Bagaimana mereka menggambarkan perasaan:
Boleh berpura-pura membuat muka tenang walaupun hakikatnya sedang marah, memerlukan masa yang lama untuk pulih jika dilukai, sensitif kepada pandangan orang lain.
Bagaimana mereka bekerja:
Menguruskan satu perkara sahaja dalam satu masa, membezakan antara kerja dan peribadi, sangat bertanggungjawab, terdorong untuk memilih hobi yang membantu mereka menenangkan perasaan.




2) Jenis Darah B adalah Pemburu (Hunters)
Mereka berdarah B adalah golongan yang periang, memiliki semangat dan aura personaliti yang kuat dan tersendiri. Dalam waktu yang sama, mereka tidak menghiraukan apa orang lain fikir tentang mereka dan liar. Mereka boleh menjadi sangat lemah, pemalas dan kurang sabar. Namun, mereka juga sangat bersungguh-sungguh (passionate) dengan apa yang mereka mahukan.
Peribadi Asas:
Pantas membuat keputusan, boleh menjadi sangat fleksibel, tidak kisah pada peraturan, menghormati penemuan sains dan perkara praktikal.
Kadar Toleransi:
Mengekalkan sepenuh minat pada apa yang mereka lakukan, kelihatan tidak sabar, tidak sukakan kerja yang berulang.
Bagaimana mereka melihat masa hadapan dan masa lampau:
Sukar melupakan hubungan terkini tetapi mudah melupakan kenangan masa silam.
Bagaimana mereka menggambarkan perasaan:
Seorang yang ‘expressive’, ‘cool’ dan bersifat objektif, walaupun selalu bergurau tetapi boleh menjadi sangat pemalu, cepat menukar ‘mood’ seperti cuaca, tidak boleh berhenti merungut apabila mereka kecewa.
Bagaimana mereka bekerja:
Kreatif dan memiliki idea baru, tidak boleh membezakan kerja dan hobi,sukar menerima arahan, tidak gentar mencadangkan perubahan yang inovatif dan tidak takutkan kritikan.




3) Jenis Darah AB adalah Ahli Kemanusiaan (Humanists)
Mereka sukar dimengerti, gemar menjauhkan diri, selalu menggunakan logik daripada mengikut gerak hati. Selain itu, AB sangat bagus menguruskan kewangan, walaupun berfungsi sebagai pendamai, kadang kala AB bersikap talam dua muka.
Peribadi Asas:
Sangat praktikal, bagus dalam menganalisa, memberikan kritikan yang membina, sukar membuat keputusan untuk perkara penting.
Kadar Toleransi:
Cuba untuk menjadi rajin, kelihatan kurang sabar.
Bagaimana mereka melihat masa hadapan dan masa lampau:
Sangat sentimental tentang masa silam, lebih risau tentang masalah semasa berbanding perkara lain.
Bagaimana mereka menggambarkan perasaan:
Berjiwa sentimental, selalunya ‘cool’ dan ‘steady’, tetapi boleh berasa sangat kecewa dengan masalah semasa yang tidak diselesaikan, boleh menjadi ‘moody’ sekelip mata.
Bagaimana mereka bekerja:
Boleh menguruskan bidang kerja yang luas, menghargai kerja keras, cepat memahami, tidak terlalu bertanggungjawab, tidak mampu membuat ‘follow up’ sebelum projek kerja diselesaikan.




4) Jenis Darah O Adalah pejuang (Warriors).
Mereka ‘outgoing’, ‘expressive’, dan ‘passionate’. O sangat bermotivasi dan mempunyai ciri pemimpin semulajadi. Dikurniakan rasa kewujudan yang kuat, tidak takut untuk mengambil risiko jika mereka yakin mereka akan menang, seorang ahli sukan semulajadi.
Peribadi Asas:
Memastikan objektif jelas, sangat yakin dengan diri, jujur, optimis dan bertenaga.
Kadar Toleransi:
Kekuatan dan kecekalan bergantung kepada matlamat mereka, mudah mengalah jika kerja dirasakan sia-sia.
Bagaimana mereka melihat masa hadapan dan masa lampau:
Positif tentang masa lampau, oleh itu tidak menyesali masa silam, mencari kestabilan kewangan di masa hadapan.
Bagaimana mereka menggambarkan perasaan:
Selalunya bersikap tenang, sensitif dengan keikhlasan, memberikan pandangan terbuka dengan jujur secara terus.
Bagaimana mereka bekerja:
Keupayaan menumpukan perhatian bergantung pada keadaan, biasanya lebih gemar memimpin, boleh mengabaikan perkara terperinci.